I Refuse to Fear COVID-19
Updated: Apr 4, 2020
I scoured the article looking at COVID-19 symptoms. Could this virus have invaded my body? Icy hot dread washed over me.
Fear. Familiar and unwelcome. I put away the article. Yes, part of my symptoms line up, but not all. My scare is probably not even warranted.
Sick or not, fear won’t win this one!
Holy indignation rose up in me because fear is my enemy, the bane of my faith. Fear can’t live in my house, not for long. I will be wise, quarantine, and pray. I will comply with the guidelines. I will fully LIVE, enjoy isolation with my hubby and puppy, learn to draw, pour out my heart in my journal, knit (new to me!), work from home, savor the backyard daffodils, talk to friends on the phone and in texts, watch Hallmark mysteries, but there's one thing I won't do...
I REFUSE to fear!
If fear keeps rearing it’s ugly head, which it will, I’ll give it to God. Every. Single. Time.
We are living in an unusual day, one for the history books. Only time will tell how this story plays out. In the meantime, we still have a vital role to play, a stand to take, good works to accomplish, and prayers to pray. We have our lives to live -- abundantly!
With imposed down time comes time for genuine reflection. God is asking me to not only wash my hands, but to examine my heart.
“Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world.” James 4:8 NLT
Is that true? Is my loyalty divided between God and the world?
Oh man, who put that hard word in the New Testament?! That would be James, the brother of Jesus, who must have been a practical, no nonsense guy who believed in straight talk. He also said stuff like don’t just listen to the Word, do what it says. And that faith without good deeds is a sham.
Yeah, that guy. Tough love guy. And he’s talking to us, the Christ-followers!
James went on to say, after he says to purify our hearts, to “Let there be tears for what you have done. Let there be sorrow and deep grief. Let there be sadness instead of laughter, and gloom instead of joy. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor.” James 4:9-10 NLT.
I know we’d all prefer a cheerier post in the midst of all this bad news. Me too. But I also know all roads of repentance, obedience, and humility lead to a season of refreshing and favor!
Acts 3:19 says, "Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord."
I’m so doing this... I'm asking God to show me anything in me that doesn’t please Him. To clean me out. To shake out the grime and hidden dirt. To forgive me for holding back any part of me.
Easter is coming. During this Lenten season, while we wait and pray, let’s check the spiritual condition of our hearts.
Here are the questions I’m asking myself:
Am I loving God with all my heart, soul, and mind? Am I loving anything more than God?
Are there any hidden sins I need to confess, sins of the heart and not just of the flesh?
Am I connecting with God, being open, vulnerable, intimate?
Do I have locked rooms in my heart I haven’t allowed Him to enter, spaces that need His light, His healing, His love?
Am I listening for God’s voice?
Speak to us, Father. Assure us of your Presence. The sacrifice of your Son Jesus was sufficient to cover all our sins, all my sins. Thank you for your gracious forgiveness.
“So rend your heart, and not your garments; Return to the LORD your God, For He is gracious and merciful, Slow to anger, and of great kindness; And He relents from doing harm.” Joel 2:13 NKJV
I choose to draw near. How about you, friend?
Prayer: Dear Father, it’s so hard not to be fearful in this scary time. Will you forgive us for getting caught up in the fearfulness? Fear, leave us, in Jesus’ name! Your Word says perfect love casts out fear. We choose to trust you, Lord. Will you work on our hearts in this season? We submit to you and give you our whole heart. Clean it out. Heal it. Strengthen it. Show us how to cooperate with you so we can love and serve you with everything in us. We ask this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ and for His glory. Amen.